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¡He is Everything!

At the beginning of this path you face the news and then very quickly you have to make decisions and act accordingly.

The trips to the hospital are immediate and urgent and you haven´t even been able to get over the shock; there is not enough time to process; it is not something that can be controlled or simply put aside. The psychological and human part suffers an impact that leaves you off base. We cannot disappear the human part, it is necessary to learn to recognize it, first to understand at least a little what is happening to you.

When I started, my writing helped with this, but little by little I realized that there were just words of pain and despair. There were many questions that did not have an answer to those already and others that would not have an answer, but I fought to find them, to understand what was in front of me. The human being´s mistaken desire for control was present, imposing itself and deceiving me.

Over time and by understanding what was happening to me in simple terms, I was able to clarify and put some things in order. Then I knew deep in my heart that the only one who could help me was God.

No one in this world can understand what a person suffers in this process. Right now I say "suffer"; and in my mind it´s like a menu that unfolds into more than 10 things at a time. Only the person who is in that situation can know.

Along the way I have learned to find a loving God, who has been taking care of me every step of the way. I have had to find a way to focus correctly and literally force myself to look for his promises for me, not because I don´t believe them or know them, but because the thoughts interrupt you, they get in your way. There is a mountain of thoughts that go in all directions, you are asking meaningless questions, or you are thinking about what´s next, what tests to do, which doctor, where to go, or that everything is over, your job, your life, your family, your dreams and your plans went into the freezer, you are simply stuck the second you heard the word cancer. You are in shock!

The pain is deep and it also does its own thing, most people cannot express what they

feel. Many cancer patients withdraw into themselves and the pain consumes them day

after day, sometimes leading to depression and unfortunately, death.

The truth is that I found the way to HIS arms, the only place where there was peace, where there is peace, calm and joy. And honestly I don´t want to leave that place.

I have managed to pause my mind, and I have found the way to Him. He was always there, but I needed to take it alone, even if it was with tears, with a broken heart, with all my questions, just so He could take the pieces and do something new, he keeps doing it, every day, every hour, every minute and every second.

Today I have no idea what will happen in the future, I never knew and today is no different; But, what I do know is that I do not want to separate myself from Him. I have decided to fight and live with courage, joy, peace and joy of heart every day and every minute that the Lord lends me in this life to complete the race. Until now I´m still here, even with cancer I don´t know when the last breath will be, so this is about fighting and living until the last moment, trusting in who He is. He is everything! There is nothing and no one in the world that can give or say what you need. Nothing and no one can sustain you like Him. In the middle of the night and through His word, His Spirit whispers to me that He is with me, that I should not be afraid, that He renews my srength, that I am His daughter and that He loves me.

Nothing makes a difference between today and before cancer, as a daughter, nothing has changed.

It´s been 7 months, and I´m still here. Cancer keeps us busy and separated from what our lives were like before, but it has never separated us from what we were called to do. Nor will it take away who we are. We will continue to fight and live life as best as possible, I hope with all my heart that people remember me not for cancer but for what God did in my life while I was on this earth.

I wish to be able to reach those people who need today the hope that only in Him we can find, and to offer information since the first thing I found in so many pages about cancer is a lot of help on Psychology, care, diets and many truly useful things but the most important was always absent. There is no Spiritual help.

In the midst of all the struggle that this is, in everything, what has sustained me completely is the Word of God, his promises and my time with him.

The love that surpasses all knowledge. 14 For this reason I kneel before the Father, 15 from whom every family[a] in heaven

and on earth derives its name. 16 I pray that out of his glorious riches he may

strengthen you with power through his Spirit in your inner being, 17 so that Christ may

dwell in your hearts through faith. And I pray that you, being rooted and established in

love, 18 may have power, together with all the Lord’s holy people, to grasp how wide

and long and high and deep is the love of Christ, 19 and to know this love that

surpasses knowledge—that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God.

20 Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine,

according to his power that is at work within us, 21 to him be glory in the church and in

Christ Jesus throughout all generations, for ever and ever! Amen.

Ephesians 3:14-21

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